Cornelius F. Kelly: Jan 16, 1936 - Aug 14, 2026

I am dead

and regardless of the manner

of my dying

at least I am on the road again.

Travel is educational,

and I am learning a great deal now.

I am neither happy nor sad,

I don't get sleepy or thirsty or hungry,

I don't get up in the middle of the night to pee.

Emotion is only a memory.

I know you are curious—

that you would like to know

what we could never know in life,

but I really can't tell you much

because of my altered state

and my inability to communicate clearly

across the boundaries of our existences.

The first thing I did was look back,

and I saw that all of you

were trying to give meaning to your lives

through your choices,

through your actions,

through your dreams.

To survive, you must establish a personal integrity.

I attempted to do this as I dealt with

guilt for regrettable actions,

frustrations from formidable failures,

anger from complex conflicts,

intoxication from alcoholism,

but now I am free.

I exist in a purely spirit world

void of pain or pleasure,

void of boredom

void of exhilaration.

I am sorry to disappoint you

because I know you expected more.

Do not be disappointed

because there is more.

I just don't have the words

to reveal the exact nature

of my present existence. Be patient.

You, too, will have this experience.

I appreciate your presence

and I love you all,